I really need to revaluate myself and my feelings. I’ve been second guessing my dreams and feeling lately. Wether they are real or worthwhile or not. Where my feelings for “x” person/a true? And what the heck do I want to do? What am I doing? Lots of self doubt and second guessing,and lots of thinking I’ve gota do… Really is a lot on my mind.. A lot to ponder. Idk why but I’m kind of upset maybe? I’m feeling something and I’m trying to figure out exactly what. What did I lose and what am I missing? I’m worried that feelings I’ve had we’re never extra real and that I’ve never really REALLY cared about someone. And also that I’m just living with no purpose or meaning,no dreams. Not so much scary but really upsetting. I’m feeling I’m missing a lot right now. It doesn’t affect me as much as I thought. But whenever I begin to ponder I get slightly somber I realize cuz I focus on what I’m missing and if I’ve lost anything. I do miss. Why?